Once in a while, we have the great opportunity to see ourselves as other people see us. Sometimes that valuable perspective is even pleasant.
This is the picture I was talking about last week, which that kind stranger/photographer took of me with his huge 8x10 camera in our favorite ocean-side city. He's photographing 'masculine women' and working on a project to honor his late, gay sister.
I'm used to being behind the camera these days, but when I saw this I had a profound moment with myself. I'm no longer the insecure teenager, the 20-something obsessed with my looks, my weight or my style or the turning dirty 30 worried about letting myself go. I was wearing a hat and sunglasses that day and felt sweaty and overweight and naked and insecure in all my glory in front of his camera with no mirror to primp or otherwise before he took the picture. In so doing, he exposed me as I am and in a way, introduced me to a new era of myself that I did not realize I wanted or needed to see. 35 year old woman. Mother of 2. Enjoying life and on a mini vacay to the beach with my family. This summer kicks ass. Thank you, Robert Kalman.
-Foster Mom (the artist)